Note to self...

...get some sleep!!! Going to bed at 4am is not a good idea!

Wasting too much time doing nothing again

This is the second day that Ive wasted doing nothing. I need to shake this lethargic feeling off. I really need to get some work done.

I am...

...STRUGGLING! I feel like Im on the verge of another serious deppression which I am not looking foward to. Im ok then Im down again. Then Im ok then down again and again and again.

I went out for a nice little walk around my house yesterday and although a little anxious for some odd reason, I really enjoyed it. Fresh air and a bit of sunshine, but not without the cold.
But I cant get over how fast the day went. It got dark pretty quick

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You see this is weird. I wanted to finish what I wrote above but I was trying to do it without getting caught by family members. After a good 4 to 5 hours Ive finaly got a chance to continue but cant. You see apart from not being bothered since dissapearing for those couple of hours Ive experienced ups and downs, felt very lethergic, sadness, unreal and hopeless. ALL WITHIN THOSE 4 TO 5 HOURS. This is CRAZY!!!! And now all of a sudden I feel slighty refreshed and am blogging whilst watching a DVD!!!!!!!