The good bad guy

Im sitting here in the heat in the dark. Wondering how the heck I have become an enemy to a close one. Believe me when I say that was never my intention and nor will it ever be. But since this whole depression and anxiety thing, I have become alot slower in making movements to bennifts mine and everyone else's life around me. My confidence is not the same. And I am the naturally a CHAMPION PROCRASTINATOR. I need to change. I need to find a part time job and do what I need to do to help start my career (which is going very slowly) on the side. The tension of me still living in this house is IMMENSE. I know I've more than outstayed my welcome. It sucks when you make a plan to change your life and it doesnt go the way you want it. Im not trying to complain too muc. Im still hopeful (which is crazy. I just really need that lucky brake. I really want to be the one to provide for my family. I want EVERYONE to be happy. I never signed up to be nobody's enemy.