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One word of advice to anyone suffering from ANY  type of mental illness...SLEEP WELL!!!! Make sure you sleep at an appropriate time and for at least 7-8 hours! I did'nt last night and I've just awoken trying to catch up with missed sleep and feel AWFUL!!! And on top of that I had a disturbing dream which has not helped at all. But saying that Im starting to feel better very slowly...!

"STUMBLEINE"

Ok I haven't posted anything in a little while but all of a sudden I feel the need to. Why? Its a bit silly and not that important but...Il type it any way. I went to bed really late last night and this morning I feel absolutely knackered! Cream crackered I tell you! Not in the best of moods but ok. So I start surfing on the net and have my itunes on shuffle. Then I come across an art site that leads to an artist flickr page called Mike Lay. He has some pretty cool stuff. But then he has some other sites and is very honest about having a rough time at the moment. I felt a bit sorry for him. And like his work. But anyway whilst I just started reading about his thoughts, my itunes throws at me Smashing Pumpkins -"Stumbleine" (in which I quickly leave on repeat). All of a sudden my room lights up slightly from behind me and memories of a certain era come flashing back. It was the combination of that particular Smashing Pumpkins song, the sun light on the desktop I work at and possibly reading bits of Mike Lays journal that brought back the feelings of my art college foundation days. For 5 minutes I remembered how "normal" things used to be. How different the world and I was. How life made me feel. And for that small moment in time, the 15 minutes given to me to reminisce, the reflection of the suns light that decorated itself on my wall and most importantly the feelings I was comforted with like an old love from the past was beautiful.